Thursday, January 31, 2013

Two days before competition; 31 January 2013

We must travel in the direction of our fears.

Let me tell you what I fear. I fear that on Saturday, I'll completely blank out. I fear that the taunting voice in the back of my head will win out over all the hours I've put into studying. I know what I'm doing. I know that I've given hours to studying.

I'm just so stressed. I want to cry and just give up. But I can't. I can't let them down. I can't let Mrs. Miller down. I can't let myself down.

I'm sorry. I just wrote and deleted about six paragraphs. My mind is so confused. I don't make much sense.
Well, maybe I'll tell you about how I do. But  I'll probably just cry in a corner. Have a good weekend.

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

29 January 2013; Tuesday after AcaDeca competition part

So last Saturday (26 January 2013) I competed in the Speech & Interview part of the AcaDeca competition. It's a two part thing; one Saturday, you give your prepared speech and an impromptu speech and you interview. The next Saturday, you test on the other 8 subjects. Yeeeeeeeeah. I think I enjoy the speech portion better..

Let me give you the rundown on AcaDeca: you have ten subjects. As previously stated, you do two pieces one Saturday and the other eight the next. The subjects are: speech (prepared and impromptu), interview, art, math, LangLit (a novel and shorter selections), music, science, history, and economics.
The eight subjects are all based on a chosen topic. This years topic is Russia.
Great subject, right? The right answer is no, if you have any common sense.
Last years topic was Imperialism.
But, I hear the year before that was the Jazz Age. Flappers, jazz, shockingly showing some leg (by that I mean the knees). What's not to like?

Do I bore you with my talk of this? Well, you only see the outside view.
But if you join, you get to see why I love this team.

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Week of No Sleep

So this week is crunch time for my Academic Decathalon team. Yes, I'm a total nerd. I can tell you what the oppurtunity value of an hour is; I can tell you that the Challenger exploded 73 seconds after launch, killing the first US civilian Miss McAuliffe, a schoolteacher; I can tell you that Anton Chekhov entered his final phase of life in 1898 and had to spend his honeymoon at a resort for tuberculosis patients.
And I'm so stressed out. Everything annoys me, or makes me wanna cry. I haven't had more than four hours of sleep and I am so tired of having a snack food for dinner and then ravaging the cupboards at the wee hours of the night.
And if AcaDeca stress isn't enough, my boyfriend has decided that it's time to fight over every little thing. Great, isn't it?

Every once in a blue moon, I write pages and pages and pages of my thoughts and problems in a little blue book. But now, I wanna write a letter or sixty...

Off to study some more. Oh, joy!

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

16th of January 2013

So this is my first post. I still don't know what to do exactly but I'll wait for the writer in me to take over, inspired by the mundane life I live.

Well, my name is Jacekleen (pronounced jay-suh-clean). I'm a junior in the Law & Government program. I did Academic Decathlon last year & continue to do it and have done Dance Guard since freshman year. These are the only two extracurricular activities I can boast of, as sad as it is.

Well, today has been another day in the continuous streak of bad days. I've been annoyed at the world since this morning so I hope no one takes my annoyance as something worse. I snapped at Kim but now I realize, she deserved it.

The highlight of my day was probably lunch. I actually hung out with someone other than the usual Guys.
This is capitalized because these are the group of male schoolmates I hang out with everyday: Jose, Chris, Gabriel and Alex. Everyday, nutrition & lunch.The bell is gonna ring in six minutes so I'm off.